I have so many words I want to say.
But it isn’t that easy
And I want to tell you what I feel
And what I think
But the world can’t let that happen.
You are you, and I am me.
And silence is a force of strings
That loosely binds us to common ground.
My mouth opens but is slipped shut by society.
And my heart deepens in my chest
And I want to stop breathing.
My mouth is open and no air comes in
And my hands start moving
They’re out of control.
You are you so you look at me.
And your eyes are waiting for me to speak.
I want to tell you what I am thinking
What I am thinking is not anything important
And I will not change the future.
Our fixed time stops while you wait
And our fixed time tightens and the strings shake.
I have so many things to say.
I have so many words I’d like to speak.
Sadly now everyone is waiting, not just you.
And now I’m looking down into the swirling world below me.
It shouldn’t be this way, but the world has let this happen.
So I close my mouth
My words don’t matter.
I will not speak today.
I will breathe again and have the pressure slowly fade.
My hands stop moving and my mind is not shaking
And you are you so you understand.
And you move your eyes away
As the fixed time moves onward again
And I am me so I just nod my head
Because even though I have so many things I want to say
I know I can always write them.
And I have so many things to write.
And when I write, the world is not watching.
And when I write, the air is not thick.
And you are still you, so you still understand.
The strings that tied me down are dissolved.
My chest is not full of the gray fuzzy substance
My airway is clear, and I do not have to speak.
What is on my mind is soberly escaping.
I want to tell you what I feel
What I think.